The Hardest Goodbye

Chapter One

Why doesn't he understand?

Why? Oh why?

In frustration, she kicked her legs, only to be startled by a loud "Yelp!" in return.

"Oh no! My poor baby! I'm so sorry," she apologised as she lifted up her 1-year-old Beagle and caressed him. He let out a soft whimper as her fingers reached the spot where she kicked him.

"Thinking about him again?"

She turned and saw her beloved mommy for a quarter of a century leaning by the doorway to her room. She rose and walked towards her and gave her a long hug.

"Oh mom! I'm going to miss you so much!"

She felt tears coming to her eyes again as she saw twinkles of tears by the sides of her mommy's eyes.

"Don't worry, darling, me and your dad are going to visit you as often as we can."

That seemed like a wonderful promise that might never come true, she thought. But she knew it could be possible too. Through the years, she saw how her parents, despite being moderately well-to-do financially, they worked very hard to provide her with all that she needed for her education. She still could not understand why education had to cost so much nowadays. Bloodsuckers! They are nothing but a bunch of money-crazy people who couldn't care less about people who forked out large sums of money for their children's education despite of their precarious financial situation. She wished she could do something about this nation's stupid education system. She wished she was someone important in the government who could change the education policy. But alas, that, has to wait.

The phone in her room rang.

They both looked at it, and then at each other simultaneously.

Her mom went over to pick it up when she didn't budge after 5 rings.

"It's Matt."

She hesitated and tried to come to a rationale why she should answer the phone. She was still angry at him. Why doesn't he understand? Couldn't he at least try to understand her? Is there any point talking to him at all?

Her mom was about to say something to Matt when she finally decided to walk over to the phone.

Before she could take her 3rd step, she felt the ceilings of her room came crashing down on her, and darkness seemed to envelop her from every possible angle that her eyes could envision. While the merciless pain reverberated in her head, she slowly slipped into unconsciousness.

Matt.......

Dry bakuteh, anyone?



For the first time in my life, I tried the dry bakuteh very near my house, and it was superb! My goodness, I mean, I heard of it like for so many years from friends, but only got to savour the delicacy last night. I'll definitely make it one of the items on my favourite foods list :)

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The Hardest Goodbye

Prologue

The pain in his heart was unbearable.

He took another sip of the cold and hard liquor in his glass as he hoped that it would at least lessen the pain. From the corner of his eyes, he saw that it was already 4am.

He placed the glass on the side drawer and took a long gaze at the most beautiful feminine figure in the world, enshrouded by her favourite mackinaw. As his meticulous eyes traced her lovely face, he sat down gently beside her.

She moved a little and opened those pretty eyes slightly.

"Mmmmm..... Matt, you didn't sleep?"

"Couldn't sleep," he replied as he helped her up.

"Could you get me a glass of water Matt? I'm a little thirsty."

"Distilled? As usual?"

"As usual, Matt," she smiled, ever so sweetly.

He went down to her kitchen as his thoughts ran wild. The pain amplified. He knew that she is going away, no matter what. He could vividly remember everything that she said.

If only she knew.

My mood now... :)

2 Word of God, 2 days break & 2 assam fish head! Hahaha...



Hi Friends! How have you all been? Wah, today only I get to be in the office because Monday doing stock count in warehouse and Tuesday having scientific seminar on food allergy & regulations. Quite a nice 2 days away from the office :)

And because my colleagues on Monday wanted to try the assam fish head in Kampung Jawa, a restoran called Yap Kee, so had a really nice assam fish head plus a few other dishes that were great tasting as well.

Then, today, after helping put up the Christmas tree and deco in my office, me and another 2 colleagues went for another round of assam fish head at Sungei Way, I think it's called Restoran Tin Sin, the air-conded one. Well, I do recall eating there, while it was pouring cats and dogs outside, with Aletheia, Jon Teh, Francis, Geri, Brandon, not sure whether got Kelvin & Daniel or not.

Well, it's not like I'm super crazy about assam fish head but just so happened that the 2 groups of colleagues had the crave for it. Both also different department and not close friends so this is really a coincidence, all within 4 days' time. I think the one at Yap Kee is nicer :) I'll bring you there when you are free yah *winks*

Ah, the Word! Do you know that after being saved for 8 years plus plus now, I only received 2 and a half Word delivered by pastors? Why half? Well, the first was Pastor Joshua, 2nd was by him also, and the half by Pastor Vernon. Why half because the Pastor Vernon one is not really a prophecy. You can read the prophecies here (sorry, some of the words are missing because initially, the blog background is black, so the missing words was in white. u still can read the missing words by highlighting the area on it). So I thought I am the type that will seldom get prophecies. Cos I thought, maybe prophecies are for people who needed encouragement, or those who are on the verge of leaving the faith.

Last Saturday, Pastor Margaret was preaching, a week after her husband, Pastor Vernon, preached. When Pastor Vernon preached, he gave Word to almost 50 youths. I didn't join in the queue because he looked so tired after praying for so many people. I was being catcher. I think I caught like 4 or 5 guys. So Pastor Margaret also gave an altar call, but guess what? She said only those who were not prayed for by her husband can only come forward. Hahaha... it's like God didn't forget me, who was busy serving and pitied the man of God.

So the Word goes like this:

Relax! You look so serious! Just relax! (Hahaha... I was like closing my eyes quite tightly, focusing on the Lord and didn't know I looked very tense... hahah)

Since you are wearing the Sydney bridge shirt (my favourite T-shirt bought in Darling Harbour), God says you are like a bridge. A bridge between Christians and non-Christians (cool!), and between employers and employees. And He has given you favour, lots of favour to do that. (Fantastic!)

That's about it. There are a few repeated words but they all mean the same thing as above. And surprisingly the next day, the Lord's Sabbath, I received another unexpected Word from Pastor Joshua. It was during the Entrepreneurs Prayer time and I was actually Pastor's aide-de-camp, helping him and passing him tissue papers or his drink as he went about praying and giving Word to the congregation, while anointing them with oil. He must have prayed for at least 100 people!!! My goodness! Actually, I would loved to received the anointing oil too, not really the Word, cos I thought Pastor must be really exhausted from praying for so many people. But after he prayed for the last person, I didn't ask him to pray for me, cos in my heart, I thought he must be very very tired. But dunno why Pastor Sally was nearby and asked Pastor to pray for me! Hahaha.... again, I'm so happy that God didn't forget me, who was busily serving Him and pitied the man of God.

So the Word goes like this:

Sorry John. I'm too tired to pray for you.



Hahahaha.......... as if lah...

Just kidding ;)

Anyways, the REAL Word:



*Puuuuuuuuuuuuuuut*



Sorry, that was me.

Ok, ok, the really REAL Word:

I see you opening up the Bible. You will understand what you read. Fresh revelations will spring up from what you read. And you will be able to use some of these verses in your presentations. And people will be amazed at your presentations. And promotions, oh yes, promotions for this brother, oh Lord.

Wow... I must have given like a hundred over talks but I never thought that I could actually insert the Word of God in the slides. Hmmm... I'll try doing that...

Ooppss, there I go again, another long blog... hahaha... Sorry... *winks*

Back to work now :)

Crazy taxi drivers

Have you read news of taxi drivers accidents and deaths?

I have.

Well, that's because they really drive like nobody's business. Well, ok, not all of them, but most of them sucks.

Just this morning, as I was driving towards Cheras, to HUKM to conduct a talk to all the dietitians there, on Federal Highway, I'm on the most right lane, and the taxi just tried to cut into my lane and end up banging me on the side.

I heard a loud bang! And when I looked back, I saw some stuffs fell off. On another occasion, I would have stopped, and asked for money, but I didn't want to be late. I wasn't sure how bad was my left side was, so I kept driving on and kept praying in tongues. Was already praying in tongues when that bang happened.

Guess what? When I reached HUKM, all I saw was just a long scratch, not deep at all, and of course, my side window was closed, if you know what I mean, and unharmed at all.

Hahahah... serves the taxi driver right for messing with me. I seriously dunno what fell off but hopefully his whole taxi falls apart! Hahaha...

The moral of the story: Don't mess with taxi drivers. They don't give a damn.

Moral of the story 2: Don't mess with me! Hahaha... and always pray in the Spirit on all occasions (Ephesians 6:18).